“Immediately the father of the child cried out, ‘I believe, help my unbelief!’” Mark 9:24.
Prior to the discovery of the Higgs Boson at CERN’s Large Hadron Collider, one of the lead physicists was asked what concerned him most. He replied: “I am concerned that I should not find the Higgs Boson if it is not there, and that I should not lose the Higgs Boson if it is there.”
We have to read that carefully to get the point.
The tendency to see or hear what we want to see or hear is very strong. It requires great discipline and honesty to overcome that tendency. The Scripture reference from Mark 24 is about a boy who was possessed by an unclean spirit. His father brought him to Jesus’ disciples, but they could do nothing. The disciples assumed for themselves two things they did not have enough of – faith and prayer. It is tempting to claim to have found something we desperately want, even when it is not there.
The boy’s father is driven to a point of greater honesty. He had found faith; he just wasn’t sure he had it in sufficient amounts. Picture him struggling to hang on to what he had as he watched his son suffer.
St. Paul expresses his astonishment to the Christians in Galatia – that they are “so quickly turning to another gospel.” (Galatians 1:6.) It’s one of the great ironies of life – that when we do find our faith, our true love, our treasure, the elusive Higgs, we run the risk of either failing to recognize it, or of too quickly losing it.
May we find faith today. Authentic faith. And if we don’t find it, may we be humble and honest enough to admit it and disciplined enough to keep searching.
A blessed Tuesday to you.