What a great article this is! Dominique Browning has reached the point in her life when she can begin to celebrate the things she is “too old for”. She keeps the words – “too old for this” – close by, a mantra that can set her free from guilt, free from worrying about her looks, free from obsessive compulsive concern about other people’s feelings.
Consider this: “Toxic people? Sour, spoiled people? I’m simply walking away; I have little fight left in me. It’s easier all around to accept that friendships have ebbs and flows…”
Friendships, like the tides, can ebb and flow. But it’s nice to think that maybe I don’t have to pound the shore quite as hard when I come in at high tide. It is great fun to watch children have at life with unbridled energy, not worrying about what it is going to feel like when they run headfirst into that wall. But it can also be liberating to realize that life doesn’t demand that we always run full speed ahead. Besides, maybe you are #2old4this.
I don’t mean to prematurely slow you down. If “full speed” is your speed, go for it. But if you have some years under your belt and you are thinking that maybe a fifteen minute nap might feel good this afternoon and the only thing that is stopping you is some internal voice acting like a football coach on steroids trying to keep you motivated, well … maybe a PM snooze would do you good.
The bible tells us that Moses, after leading his people out of Egypt, after traversing with them the hot desert and unforgiving wilderness for 40 years, comes to the brink of the Promised Land, sees the vast expanse of it, and then does not join the battle to win it. We are told that this was a punishment for his sin of disobedience (Numbers 20:11-12). But have you ever wondered if Moses, anticipating the battles to come, might have recognized first to himself and then admitted to God: “I’m #2old4this!”
A blessed Tuesday.